"I keep thinking back to that night that never happened; back to the love that never was.
Had I been wilder, free of guilt and pride, I would have let you do more than hold my hand. Perhaps if you had looked at me with affection - if I had been able to see your desire - I would have collapsed under my desire to get close to you.
But I didn't. Admittedly, a part of me wishes I had. But I know that had I done it, that guilt and regret would have been far greater than the feelings I hold now. If you had loved me - and if I loved you - we would have found a way. But you don't; and I don't. So in the end, thank you at least for reminding me of how great my self-control is."